Home Sweet(?) Home

These girls. 

I miss them. Sure, I've already seen Julie and Paige multiple times since we moved out. And we only moved out like a week ago (not even that long).

But I miss them. I miss living with them.

So I moved home for the summer. And I'm still not sure how I feel about it.

I like home. I like Heber, I like my house. I love my family, and I love having an amazing mother who will do my dishes and cook me food.

But still. It's so different than what I've been used to the last 8 months.

I loved living on my own. I loved being able to have the ability to leave whenever I wanted, go where ever I wanted, and return whenever I wanted. I was the only one who had to deal with the consequences (mostly no sleep).

Don't get me wrong. My parents are great. Ya, it sucks having a curfew again, but it's not unreasonable. I know and understand why I have to be home at a certain time.

I just miss it. I miss Ben, Taylor, Conner, Jay, Jesse, and all those other Orem boys showing up at my apartment with no warning.

I miss Stacie and Brooklyn and Christina living upstairs, with Suzanne and Cassie just a couple minutes away in Heritage.

I miss staying up late, talking to Paige, Julie, and Rachel about stupid things. I miss finding new music in the middle of the night. I miss looking at the clock and wondering why we're up so late, then staying up for another two hours. I miss fighting for space, so that I can take a nap on the couch. I miss talking about who is dating whom in the ward, obsessing over the latest RM who has caught our eye, and wondering why we're still single over bowls of honey popcorn and cups of herbal tea.

I miss it all. And it's only been a week.

I just feel like I'm going to miss so much. Being a half hour away. And soon I start work. 10 hours a day. 4 days a week.

Everyone else is in new apartment complexes. New wards. Meeting new people. Making new friends.

I'm at home. With the same people who I've known since I was 6. And all my friends are in Provo.

I loved college. I didn't want to leave. I didn't think it'd be this bad though.

I wasn't homesick for Heber during school. But now that I'm back in Heber, I'm homesick for Provo. I even go down everyday for work, and I still miss it.

Oh BYU. Oh freedom. I miss you.

Baby come back.

Skinny Love.

This song is what's getting me through finals week. I might have a little bit of an obsession with this girl already. Check out Shelter, People Help The People, and Terrible Love by her as well. And the original of this song, Skinny Love, by the amazing Bon Iver.
You know what else is helping me survive finals week? Greek yogurt. Popcorn. 5 Hour Energys. And this playlist. My focus playlist. Instrumental music, with just enough bass and excitement to keep me awake. Explosions in the Sky, God Is An Astronaut, and This Will Destroy You are amazing bands. Click on the names and it'll take you to my favorite song by each. Also this one, by Explosions in the Sky. They're so good, I couldn't just pick one song.
You'll have to download Spotify to access the playlist. It's free though, and totally worth it.
So do it. Listen to the goodness that's keeping me alive.

Late night prate.

I'm sorry. I'm going to ramble for a moment here.
Actually, why am I apologizing? It's my blog. I'll do what I want.

Why do I always do my best work in the middle of the night? I like sleep. I want to sleep. But life hates me and won't let me. Because I can't get anything done during the day. So it gets completed now.
I apply for the advertising program in the fall. I need a 60-second video saying why I should be accepted. I want to make it before June, so my friends who are cinematic geniuses can help me before their missions. But I have very few ideas. Which concerns me.
I had a brief moment of inspiration in the car, driving back to Provo from Heber tonight. I believe statements perhaps? I believe in color. I believe in bare feet. I believe in change. I believe in driving with no destination. I believe in traveling. I believe in singing as loudly as possible to The Eagles and John Denver with the windows down. I believe in inspiration coming at the most unlikely times. Good thing I've started carrying a notebook around with me everywhere.
How will this help me get into the advertising program? I don't know. I need more inspiration. Lets go on another drive.
This might be the first script I've ever written for a presentation before. I usually just make things up as I go along. This is a big step for me. Want to hear why you should buy a GoPro HD camera? Let me tell you. GoLive. GoShare.
Biology is the worst. Especially environmental biology. No, I don't want to study 40 pages of science just so I'll still have no idea what is on your 30 question test. Am I going to fail? Probably. Do I care? At this point, no. My parents will though.
I want to learn another language. Signed up for French. I'm excited. We'll see how it goes.
Am I the only one who finds this video hilarious? Probably not a good sign that I laughed so hard at this.
Dresses and skirts are impossible to find nowadays. How come everything is so dang short? All I want is a cute skirt that goes to my knees and that doesn't make me look like I have 4 kids, den mother, feed my kids all organic food, and president of the PTA.
You know the best study music? Explosions in the Sky, God is an Astronaut, Blackmill, Chronicles of Narnia soundtrack, and Last of the Mohicans soundtrack. I'm mostly loving Explosions in the Sky and God is an Astronaut though. They're amazing.
Why does everyone love Darcy so much in Pride and Prejudice? He's a jerk the entire movie, until like the last 20 minutes. Although he does have some quality lines.
I might possibly have a chick crush on Keira Knightly though. Weird? She's great.
I have to carry 5 camp chairs to class tomorrow morning. Trying to map out a way to do that, without walking 15 minutes and passing through the middle of campus, is not an easy task.
I lost my ID card yesterday. For the 2nd time. Which wouldn't be a big deal, except for that's how I buy food. And get into my office at work. Problems.
I don't want to move out. I want to stay in Provo. Yet at the same time, I'm so ready for some change. I need new people around me. Except my roommates. I like them. They should stay.
Would it be worth it for me to wake up early tomorrow and go for a run? At this point, probably not. I'm barely gonna sleep as it is.
I can't wait until I have a dishwasher again.
I miss my puppy.
I want to go on a horseback ride.
All this sunshine has been so nice. Why do you have to rain on my happiness Utah? I haven't even managed to get a tan yet.
Finals are just So. Much. Fun.

Serenity now, kids.
Serenity now.