Sometimes I like to vent to friends. And sometimes they help me realize things.
Like I'm not the only one feeling like I'm stuck in the same place.
Like nothing is happening in my life.
And I need something drastic to happen.
I don't know what. I just feel like I'm at a standstill. I'm not doing anything with my life right now. I'm not sure if I'm accepted into my major or not. I don't know if I'll get an internship this summer. My job is great, but it's not going to get me anywhere.
I just need a change.
I've been thinking about this a lot actually. I want - NEED - to get out of Utah. I might move to Maryland for the summer, live with my cousins, and work out there. I might go and teach English somewhere - Russia maybe. I might go on a mission.
The only problem is that none of these things can happen until next summer. And it's only October. I'm way too impatient for this.
So I'm attempting to make little changes now. I joined the rugby team. I'm trying to buy new clothes. And I dyed my hair.
It's really dark. But I like it.
Favorite quote at the moment? This:
"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers." - M. Scott Peck
Guys. I'm stuck in a rut. And I'm trying to get out of it. But it's not happening fast enough. Gah. I need a major change.